Third wheel or the extra

It seems that is often my place. Me reaching out to others. Bringing them together or joining in on what they are doing. I am looking for a place to rest. A person to be connected to....a partner in crime. To be a permanent part of something and not feel as if I am in Limbo.

I know that I have that in Christ. That God loves me fully and completely. I rejoice in that. 

I guess I wonder what it means that I still desire more? Is it bad to want someone to share all my thoughts with? Someone who wants to explore God with me? Ask questions have discussions challenge each other? 

Sigh...........

If Jesus + nothing= everything

Why do I desire more?

Where is my contentment?